We all make mistakes; we are human after all aren’t we? We all drown ourselves in those mistakes as well, hoping we could find a way to fix it, even knowing it’s too late. I am on the verge of making a decision that could most probably be a huge mistake. So what do you do when you stand in the edge of a blade like this? When you’d lose either way, when you’re gonna damage the same, when you’re about to lose something you work so hard for and cherished so dearly. My first mistake was carrying a little bit too much. My second mistake was not seeing things for what they really were.

I wish I could tell you I’m strong and perhaps I am in other aspects that don’t involve love, but right now I feel like I can’t even lift a finger, I’m exhausted, but I can’t rest. I sleep, but the nightmares keep my mind awake. It’s time to move on now, but I can’t take that one step. How do you convince yourself this is the right thing to do, when you know in the long run you’re going to regret it? I regret it already though, I regret it all so much…

We need to grow up at some point and mistakes I guess are just lessons learned. It will take me a bit I’m sure, to battle with myself and make it happen, but I know it’s time.


Is it truly a mistake if it’s meant to heal your heart?